Course V - Teaching 7: Renunciation as Salvation

Renunciation –understood as unique salvation of the world, taken with Holy Vows, and daily lived through acts and rhythm of Community– inevitably leads to a mystique and to certain way of expansive inner life.
A true Renunciation, total and absolutely simple, does not concern to only one man or to one group of men, but to the entire Humanity and to all beings that were, are and will come.
This inner state, developed in the soul through a life of Ordination, is something spontaneous and natural, and can be analyzed and controlled, and even accelerated, if the soul is properly aware of the method in general and particular terms: that is, a method to possess totally this good of Renunciation. This is called Mystique of Renunciation.
We do not name it “Mystique of the Heart”, which is a total synthesis of life of Renunciation, because we would need much time to explain it; so we say “Mystique of Renunciation” to express Mystique of the Heart in a synthetic way.
You cannot consider this admirable field if you do not know your place in the world and life.
Humanity thinks in different ways and its viewpoints are multiple; so you need to be a good observer and possess your quite clear and defined philosophy.
What does determine human events? We shall make use of known terms for a clearer explanation: history, psychology and ethics or moral.
History is a phenomenon whose repercussion is from the external side to the internal side of the individual.
Psychology is action and reaction of inner faculties of man.
Ethics is the result of this outer historical, individual and psychological– collision, first transformed into an individual, inner fact; and later, into a collective, outer fact. Then, the Son can develop his mystique from this basis, because he has a clear idea about his place in the world and Universe.
Here is the mission of the Ordained Son: development of his internal faculties, but not enclosed in knowledge, analysis and possession of these faculties, saying: “This is my world, happiness and heaven”, because inevitably, despite his isolation, there will be external factors that will have repercussion on him: what he learnt, what he brought to the world and his ancestral idiosyncrasy. External historical factors will come ever to knock at his door, and there will ever be a result determining these faculties.
So the Ordained Son has to build his inner abode; but this inner abode has to be perfectly in tune with all relative external values. As the result of this union of orders, there must be certain way of living and certain mystique. This cannot be mystique of absolute isolation or absolute social work, but the result of harmony of offering and supreme sacrifice; a mystique of expansive realization.
Over all, Cafh’s mystique is that of offering: self-offering, offering of inner values and offering of outer values.
Humanity suffers because the historic factor did not give it due experience. All enjoy all goods, comforts and knowledge that are a legacy of other men. You walk on a sidewalk, you live in a house, you have electric power, and you travel by train or plane; you enjoy all these comforts and say: “This is of Humanity and we have paid for it, and nothing else.” This concept does not recognize that man is responsible for Humanity, and forgets the price of all this work and effort of so many lives, which are not economic values, but a living value of endeavor and sacrifice.
Man says he knows his historical factors, but only enjoys, and nothing more. He just acquires obligations, debts and karma. In short: he receives and receives. “Give me, everything should be for me”.
You have to see if your effort to give is compatible with what you receive. Otherwise, other historical process of pain is in preparation for Humanity.
The first mystical sense has to be that of offering; here is a simple lesson ever imparted to the individual being: man earns what he gives, not what he receives. He must pay for what he receives, and its price is blood. There are many generous beings that understand this, and give; but the offering of the Ordained Son is greater: they have given everything, even their own life. They are beside the Great Initiates, beside those who offer their lives to show to Humanity by their divine example the Path of Salvation.
But this offering becomes more intense through a mystical method, and this must be learnt from great beings and practiced within. This means mystique. We must practice it with our heart, with our thought and with all our forces of will and love.
Mystique of Renunciation transformed into offering is mystique of bread and wine. The Great Initiates that came to earth have taught this.
Here is the first teaching to the Sons: “Leave the bread of the poor; become yourself bread of life. As Christ said: “Take this bread and wine; it is my flesh and blood”.
You cannot make an offering of your services alone or of what you can do; you must make an offering of yourself. Your own karma produced by those goods that you enjoyed on earth –an ease apprenticeship, knowledge and distinction between good and evil– cannot be paid by means of services but by means of your own life, with all your being.
The great beings have made this. Christ made an offering of himself for the sake of Humanity, but before he said to his disciples: “Take my bread and wine, here is my flesh and blood”. “This is my testament, the good that I leave to you: to give your own flesh, your own blood”.
An offering must be absolute. Mystique of offering is this continuous internal sense: not to make an offering of what you give but of your own life, every day a little. The Son has to say during his meditations: “I have received so much from Humanity, I was given everything, but, what did I give? I begin by making an offering of my human intentions, my prayers and my sacrificed life; of all works that I make. I offer everything that the Divine Providence eventually sends: annoyance, dryness, comfort, discomfort, disease and changes in life come from time and age. But still I want to make an offering of something more: of myself, of my own life.
This usual offering of heart, mind and all our being is mystically transmuted into prayer; it is not only imaginative prayer, but constant and continuous one. Really it leads the world to absorb the magnetism, the force of the Son, and to receive the good of his offering. Something emanates from him: like an essence, a light gradually worldwide expanded over all beings.
Sons must internally claim: “I offer my life, my flesh and my blood. I surrender totally. Take me. Now it is time to take this miserable life, if necessary, to pay for it, since the entire Humanity is not ready to pay for it; and this way I shall redeem men of their blindness because they take everything, even by taking forcefully. I surrender as bread and wine. I recognize my poverty, but I give my own insignificance and remain at the divine disposal. I was able to discover the mystery of being bread, Eucharistic bread, Divine bread. Now I am a Host, an immolated victim.
This inner feeling gains strength and life, establishes a true communication and becomes help for human beings. Many Sons already feel like that. Sometimes if someone wishes their healing when they are sick, they say: “Do not ask of me to be healed because my ills are my only good to be able to give something”.
Ordained Sons: you must ever keep in mind that mystique is not that of peace and happiness in the divine realization, but of offering. But as the Blessed Buddha said: “I cannot have peace and happiness if Humanity has not my good and goes on to walk on the path of pain, misery and suffering.
Humanity is blind. If it made an offering of itself, if it recognized the good that it has received, and if it understood being ready to give, its pain would be removed at once. But this demands the existence of souls that are ready to self-offering.
How sad is to hear consecrated souls speaking like men of the world, like the blind, and revealing that they do not surrender through an inner mystical offering! They express outwardly this and, without noticing it, go on to join hands, to be in disagreement with all, and to neglect their observances and obligations, which is the only thing that they are able to give. They get bored with everything, and instead of doing their offering, go on to be mean before the Divine Mother through what they already have given her with their Vows.
The inner offering of the Sons must begin with mystique, that is, with prayer; this is the only way to make it effective externally. In a legend, a Hindu saint was very ignorant about meditation. Once a wild oar attacked him and to defend against it, he gave the animal a blow with his head. The wild oar cried out in a way so terribly painful but at the same time so sublime, that the saint was moved. Then we are told that the repented ascetic, repeating continuously and perfectly with his cry the pain of that poor animal, was able to realize God.
When your prayer is with a true spirit of offering, this offering becomes effective; God takes what you give and your offering becomes holocaust and reality.
A being that is responsible for his actions in the world, in tune with the outer aspect, and pay for the karma of the world –not a being that says: I pay for my karma, and I am free from others–, this being has the right to realize God in himself, and can become a perfect harmony of internal values, emotional, mental and spiritual, because now he becomes a holocaust, an offering that now is true.
Christ offers not only his life as a seed through bread and wine, but also goes up to the Cross. He suffered from any pain and torment until the cross, the highest holocaust.
These beautiful prayers, this inner mystique of the Son became a reality, became something alive; it would be an illusion if his offering did not attain the holocaust, the reality. A little drop of blood has to adorn veils and cloaks of the Sons that will have a sign of confirmation and reality; the holocaust comes soon to a person that knows the meaning of true mystique.
How different is the reality from dreams! Many consecrated souls want sincerely to offer themselves but in their own way, according to their predilections, although they do not recognize the latter as such.
Mystique of holocaust is mystique of mystery, of something unknown; it is the result of inner factors that he never imagined to discover or possess. So, when a being offers himself in his own way, he just impedes the Divine Work of redemption in himself and raises objections.
Prayer imposed by life of Ordination, even oral prayers, may be little for a being that offers himself; by his fervor, he would like to say more prayers and to have more time to pray, but however beautiful these prayers be, they will be holocaust because of their personal bliss and like: it is a personal offering. If he wants to observe a discipline, he does at will, but although this discipline is good, is not the perfection of a holocaust. Saint Rose of Lima said in the end of her life: “I asked pains, but I did not believe that they were so great”. She imagined her usual pains, but God reserved another pain for her. What you want to do personally, however good it be, is worthless because God gives what He wants to give, and He will touch the soul in a fiber that this soul does not want, that is, in a secret place, well guarded and hidden: it its there that pain will blow. Then the imperfect being complains and feels that this is much pain, and neglects prayer and perceives the dark; he thinks that is misunderstood, that Superiors are too much severe, the Regulation heavy, and his obligations excessive. This happens because he refuses to surrender: then his personal offering is theatrical, external.
God wants something else. A self-offered being is a mind in blank, not thinking about today or tomorrow, but ready for Him to take what he wants.
If you complain, you do not give, and offering is not holocaust; and you need to transform it into a holocaust and to tinge it with blood. It is there that a being can realize: in the work that he is given, in a disease ordered by the Divine Providence and in unexpected troubles. God looks for him there and says: “I want this, and I dislike something else. I give you all, but I desire your soul”.
Generally, when you are sick, you offer all, but not this evil because disturbs and takes out your inclination to prayer. But God wants it, and this is the drop of blood to save Humanity. Then you can attain mystical death and be worthy of being called a living dead, a soul that is not of this world.
After his torment, Christ breathed his last and there was great peace and silence. The Divine wants this: to give later to the souls this great silence of death, that is the result of Mystique of Renunciation.
Here is ethics, moral of the Son: Surrender to the Divine Will. After many years living in Community, it is likely that a person finds the same defect that he had in the beginning, and this defect is like a thorn in the heart; then he wonders: Why do I have this defect?” You accept it when you realize that still you remain there: Total, absolute surrender to the Divine Will; this is mystical death of sensation.
When you attain this state of pain, that is, enduring pain and accepting everything from the divine hands, then you are so perfect holocaust that later you do not feel that pain and everything seems little, even the heaviest blows ordered by the Divine Providence. But it is then when you harvest: when you are dead; not because of insensibility, but because of an absolute surrender.
It is likely that the Divine Mother produces heavy torments even in mystique developed by the Son after his offering, during his prayer: nervousness, intense disturbing pains and suffering during meditation. Even so, he must strive at most for accepting willingly what he is given.
Through elation, he enjoyed and received; now, through dryness, suffering, sickness, weakness and nervousness, he feels that he does not pray; well, now he is giving something.
If the Son makes his continuous effort, and tries to renounce, to accompany internally and to tell in his thought these words of prayer, this is a mystique that always brings silence of death and quiet to the soul; it is as if everything slept and had finished. If the Sons make this, they will know that the Divinity has taken the offering of their lives.
They are there, and have nothing more to give. They realized their great debt with Humanity. They did all that they could do –good or bad– and will go on to give. They take everything from God; the Divine Will is fulfilled: God gives, Gods takes out. Then they can harvest the fruit of Silence; the true ecstasy is not to enjoy God and to remain there as if you were not there; ecstasy of Renunciation is perfect peace and acceptance, is total surrender.
In short, we repeat those words of meditation used as steps to reflect on renunciation, which is Synthesis of Renunciation in Mystique of the Heart. We should explain Mystique of the Heart more in detail: it begins in childhood; it continues in youth, with surrender, mendicity, divine call, union with the Masters, mystical death of senses, and so on.
For meditation you think: “I have taken infinite gifts; I have taken everything since my birth until today: benefits, comfort, assistance, spiritual guide, teaching, food, breakthroughs of civilization, books, magazines, written lessons… et cetera. When I was sick I had: medical assistance, necessary medicine, newest drugs provided by science. Winters with a roof; summers, with comfort and fresh air; family assistance, social and educational assistance. Assistance of Cafh: Community and Superiors continuously beside me. My hands are full of gifts; I have taken all this in a nonchalant way”.
“I have to think of all those who voluntarily gave themselves for all this good that I have taken, and to examine what I have given to Humanity through my knowledge, my possibilities and my being. What did I do to receive this good that I have been given.
After you see that you did so little, you say: “How ignorant I was, ever living as I did. I want to make an offering of my love, of all my affection; I want to give all; continuously there are souls asking my affection and I only give it to some few favorite people that are friends of mine. My love must be for all those who ask it of me: children and sick and disabled persons that the Providence puts on my way. I must give my feelings, but without any expectation of love or reward because I understand them”.
“I want to give all that I learnt, much or little: what I learnt in my professional career. In the spiritual teaching, in personal experience, in world and in Cafh, I want to teach, and I do not want to be selfish, but to give lavishly: may all have the little knowledge that I possess. I will give all continuously. In my walks or breaks I will teach all my knowledge produced by readings; I will surrender continuously.
“But this is so little for soul like mine that I have to offer my life continuously. I will not fear infections, cataclysms, flood or war; I will fear nothing because I want to offer my life. If other beings suffered from this sad circumstances with serenity, I will give all, not like poor people of the world that just want to protect their dear ones and go wherever nothing may reach them.”
“May everything be surrendered for the sake of Humanity, and may everything be disseminated over beings. I am holocaust, martyrdom of love; I am perfect offering, the unknown martyr. Over all I have to want what God wants to give me by means of reprimands and punishments of Superiors because I can give so little! But, my God, I give with all my love this that you want, although it may be a little disturbance. I want for you to take away my inclination to prayer, also I give it to you: may nothing remain with the exception of this little harmful ash that I am.”
“Here, at the foot of the altar, there is not a Son, but a little handful of ash that anyone can blow and none realizes. May none notice my presence; may I be little, vain and useless within sight of all men. May I be dead, transformed into dust and ash because I know that this ash someday will be raised by the wind of the Divine Love that does not allow nothing being lost, and this dust will be united with the dust of the eternal happiness.”
This is Mystique of Renunciation: Regulation, work and observance of the Son will transform him into this; and he does this through his inner living.