Course XXI - Teaching 9: Other Passive Affective Meditations
The “GOLDEN TEMPLE”. To reach the Temple of the soul, we need to undergo innumerable difficulties related to inner activities. You reach the purity of the soul as you conquer the peak of a mount; you remain there some moment, and later you come back to the valley. But that mount, with all its difficulties, still stands unalterable. How to act for a permanent conquest of this peak? You may have and keep money, and not to lose it. But if one conquers some few moments of peace, how can keep them? Suddenly they disappear, and one comes back again to troubles of the world. Our consolation last few moments and for months we strive again after the conquest of few further moments. When will we learn how to find consolation and inner peace in effort itself? When will we learn how to conquer mounts for the sake of the conquest, for the sake of the escalation, not desiring the prize of the peak?
The “VEIL OF AHEHIA”. It is this effort for conquering inner peace that is inner peace. One’s limited consciousness makes us believe that the triumph is the only valid thing; seemingly the Temple, the innermost Temple is nothing more than an inevitable consequence of our efforts and struggle. When you love efforts for the sake of perfection, as the essence of the way, you are identified with its goal. You look for God and do not find Him till your soul realizes that God becomes this search.
Likewise, one does not see Ahehia because Ahehia is veiled, till we realize that She is the veil that hides Her; so, we won’t see that veil, –we will see Ahehia. So, we have to transform our inner vision of life, and to remain entirely in the bliss of being on the way and being the way. We should not tear the veil of Ahehia, –we must increase the power of our vision.
The “RESURRECTION OF HES”. The Divine Mother is with the soul, although she does not realize anything. She is here, but you do not see her. As one has little faith, we need some proof of her presence in order to be sure. When one learns how to live without proofs of the Divine, then our rapture will be permanent, although this rapture nothing has to do with outer sensations. One may be very wicked and suffer much; but if our own knowledge of the Divine Mother is in us, we are powerful, and the happiness of the soul will remain unalterable.
A rapture of the soul nothing has to do with what occurs on the epidermis. The point is that the epidermis affects the being as a limited human being and distracts one’s inner vision outward; but defects never affect that fidelity that the Divine Mother feels for a soul. It is you that move away from her. She is in you; but you afford to ignore her. When you believe that you think of the Divine Mother, it is only your imagination, your fantasy that is thinking; if you thought entirely of her, you would never stop doing so.
