Course XXII - Teaching 4: Affective Meditation on the “Black Lady” and the “Abyss”

A man that disregards the supernatural aspect and reflects about those things that he perceives in human relations, will conclude that everything is lost for him.
For example, he will realize how words, especially those referred to moral or ethical attitudes, and said by men of today, are mere conventional sounds that express partial, superficial and most time false aspects of those attitudes. So, love is pleasure of the flesh, lust and will-to-possess; purity is prudery; freedom is irresponsibility; kindness is weak character, and so on.
In other words, the sense of words has lost its essence as the result of limited, unimportant and selfish thoughts.
By logic, a limited, unimportant and selfish way of living is born of thoughts of this kind. And a limited, unimportant and selfish person is ever concerned about living externally; so, he creates separateness that eventually becomes his enemy and new sources of evil.
A man like that is like a parasite in the garden of God. He wants to possess everything outside him, he shallows everything, and throws up all those things that he is unable to digest, but all those things remain stained, crushed and poisoned by his own rancour because he cannot use them.
The Divine Mother’s Son realizes all this, but knows that She does not forsake her Children. He has heard her sweet and soft call from the depths of his own heart, and started the slow journey assisted by the Holy Masters who guide him through those mazes that the Black Lady builds before him.
He would be unable to go out of those mazes without help from the Holy Masters; but the point is that it is he who must pass through them, and needs all his strength and efforts to win.
So, he holds as a weapon his abhorrence to all those evils that converted him into a parasite in the garden of God. This abhorrence to his own evils marks an initial fundamental change which makes him fit for walking through his way-back Path to his Sacred Tabernacle where the Divine Mother is lovingly expecting him.
But this Path sinks in the dark Abyss of Desolation.
As he follows this spiritual direction, is more and more far away from the motherland of men. This Heavenly Motherland still is remote, hidden and mysterious. He becomes inflamed with love for the Divine Mother and leaves the past behind, abhors everything that previously identified him with the environment of the old motherland, and says the same words of other persons, but their meaning is changed, and he cannot follow them. So, he remains lonely and torn between the death agony of his past personality and the call of a new love leading him to this rebirth point, where he is upset as a naked and defenseless newborn child.
So, as a newborn child, he finds loving hands to care and protect him; he claims for food, and the Holy Masters provide it. And a terrible desolation becomes spiritual future. This desolation transforms the newborn child into a boy that will be the New Man, the tireless Pilgrim toward the Substantial Union with the Divine Mother.