Course XX - Teaching 8: Affective Passive Meditations

Souls whose minds get tired by successive images and ideas need graphic and simple images and ideas for their exercises of meditation; for instance, as follows:

The “BLACK LADY”. Effect: “ABHORRENCE”.
Invocation:
Let us ask our Holy Mother: please, give us real abhorrence, which is understanding and indifference to all mutable things.
Imaginative Picture:
See the undifferentiated cosmic substance. See life itself as undifferentiated cosmic substance. See the substance of life like a big, homogeneous, equal and gray mass.
See a gray, homogeneous, oily, uniform and all-permeating stain.
See nothing more than this gray and uniform substance.
Sensations:
As an effect, see how the lower nature is not an enemy to destroy and abhor blindly, but eternal becoming of matter, which is so immense and big like God.
It is only bad when, through veils of delusion, becomes multiple and variant forms, and the individual being identities himself with these illusory forms.
This sensation brings us this holy indifference to all things, this soft abhor that is understanding of the impermanence of all human things through a vision of uniformity and eternity of life.
Purposes:
Intend to get abhorrence. This soft abhorrence that is holy indifference to all things, and clear understanding that nothing is worthwhile because everything has to return to the unique cosmic substance.
Consequences:
You get inner peace that only detachment can give, and abhorrence for outer things.

Subject: The “ABYSS”. Effect: “DESOLATION”.
Invocation:
Ask the Holy Mother: please grant us that desolation that is clear intuition and understanding of evils of the world.
See the immense stain of the world, a black, dark, obscure stain. In this stain you can see nothing, except darkness, obscurity and blackness.
Sensations:
You see this blackness and the world made darkness, and sense that the cause of this is the big evil of Humanity, that is, big passions, and then you feel great desolation and wish not to be contaminated by this darkness, these passions and this evil. And simultaneously with this desolation and wishes to escape from all, you feel that all these souls should be helped and saved.
Purposes:
Propose: may this desolation that you feel be not only for your own benefit and detachment from evil, but also for its transformation into constructive desolation making wish the salvation of everybody. Consequences:
One gets a constructive desolation leading and contributing to the salvation of all beings.

Subject: The “TWO WAYS”. Effect: “DETACHMENT”.
Invocation:
I ask the Holy Mother inner detachment; spiritual detachment beyond all material things.
Imaginative Picture:
Above the highest mountain of the world, I see very white snow on its peak. I cannot see any road, since a mirage of white snow makes me see a big radiation of white light.
Sensations:
I sense I cannot chose roads any more, because my road has been traced, fatally traced, that is, to reach the Substantial Union with the Divine Mother, for the Eternity.
I sense that to soar up high, I have to leave and be detached from all earthly goods, and not only from my own earthly goods, but also from my intrinsic good, of my inner values; that is, of all, with perfect spiritual renunciation and detachment in order to fulfill only the Will of the Holy Mother. Purposes:
My purpose: never to wish anything, to detach myself from everything, not to wish science, wisdom or spiritual power, and to aim only at a greater and greater detachment through self-identification with my Beloved Mother.
Consequences:
Through this detachment, I succeed in staying on the path, finding my way, being myself the way; the Divine Mother’s way.

Subject: The “STANDARD”. Effect: “CHOICE”.
Invocation:
I ask the Holy Mother: please, grant me unique, absolute and true choice, a choice settled in the very center of the soul.
Imaginative Picture:
I see a beam of light widened, enlarged, and covering the whole Universe.
Light, more light. Light of Light. All is light.
Sensations:
I sense that my vocation, the substantial choice in my life is to give all to the Divine Mother –my being, my soul, my self.
I sense that this choice is so unbreakable that could not be otherwise, and I could not choose a part when I have glimpsed the Whole –the infinite Light of my Divine Lady.
Purposes:
My purpose: to remain in this Divine Light of the Mother, with infinite peace of the soul, and to tell any time to my self: Why should I go on to wish this or that when already everything has been given? Consequences:
Through this divine and total choice, I succeed in making the Divine Mother live in me, think of me, speak by me, and make what She wants me to do.
I am good for nothing, but succeed in living always in Her infinite Light.
My choice: to be personally nothing, so that She may be everything.