Course XX - Teaching 5: Affective Meditation on the “Two Ways” and the “Standard”

Meditation: The “TWO WAYS”. Effect: “DETACHMENT”.
Invocation:
I ask Him who right now I worship after the name of Maitreya to be my Guide and my Path.
My request is not to expect His Coming, but to tread on the path to Him.
I see the Way, only one Way, luminous and future way; the old way disappeared and has been deleted.
I see the way, straight, clear, luminous way directly to the goal.
I see the future way of the man of the New Race.
I see the way of Liberation.
Sensations:
I sense this New Way as my own way because I am Him, and I am myself the Way.
I sense that so far I did not find the Way because I was looking for it behind veils of my own personality.
I sense that I could find the way so vainly searched by removing the concept of personality and detaching myself from this deadly enemy that is after me throughout life and death.
My real ego, not my personal ego, will be one with my way.
Purposes:
My purpose: to detach totally from myself in order to reach the way of light I am glimpsing.
It is easy to be detached from outer things, but difficult to be detached from inner things, from those things so stuck to the soul that one believes they are a part of the soul.
Consequences:
I get detachment, the Great Detachment.
I can eradicate from my soul the imperceptible dead weight of my own personality.
Finally I eradicate my personality so that it stops deceiving and concealing my true being.
I get the Great Detachment, the inner detachment.

Meditation: The “STANDARD”. Effect: “CHOICE.
Invocation:
I ask Him who is about to come –Maitreya– to deliver me personally the Standard of my vocation where the name of my choice is written.
Imaginative Picture:
I see the name; I see my own name written on the Standard.
I see my wonderful, splendid name written with divine letters.
I see my spiritual name written on the Standard.
Sensations:
I sense something definitive, total and true in my soul.
Many have been my names throughout my life, which gave me many joys, but their sound never could fill up the void of my soul.
I sense that my true name is about to be revealed, the name only known to God and that is disclosed to those selected souls admitted to His Divine Presence.
I sense that my choice moves me entirely from the world and human things. And my future destiny is to act on a totally spiritual environment.
Purposes:
In glimpsing the day of my final and real choice, my purpose is not to elude the work in the world, but to work harder in the world.
My purpose: to choose my true and divine destiny, but not to leave aside my human work.
Consequences:
I get the choice, not some choice, but the Only Choice, dictated by my divine name, the choice about living in the world, but not to being of the world. The choice about being a soul entirely united with the Divine Master, but punctually performing my human duties.