Course XLVII - Teaching 42: Our Life as Holocaust (January 10th, 1960)

Despite our total surrender, human personality is ever present and manifested in us by sublime actions, but however sublime they be, they are not our mission. We have to be no more than a flame burning at the feet of the Divine Mother.
We have been removed from the centre of Cafh’s Sons acting in the world, and we should not be more than this: the flame of Cafh.
If a Son of the world goes and says to his Superior: “I would wish to found a college, or to abstain from motion pictures, or invest my earnings of this year on the X work”, in fact we tell him, “Very well, your work is wonderful”, and Cafh backs his realization. So these souls live their holocaust and in fact contribute to the work of Cafh.
But all this is worthless for us. Because of our Vows, we are not human beings any more; we are divine beings.
In an Ordination, especially in a Community Ordination, everything is the other way round; then anything that we considered important or valuable is worthless.
Our Mother does not want our works, but our “lives”. Our unique reality is the holocaust.
If I wish to be a teacher, I am not fulfilling my vocation; if I wish to be a male nurse, I am not fulfilling my vocation; and if I wish to experience the hardest penance, I am not fulfilling my vocation.
One has to wish only to fulfill the Divine Mother’s Will.
An Ordained Son neither possesses, nor wants, nor wishes, nor expects anything. He simply “is”. When we were in the world could help souls, protect children, and save a family.
But now nothing of this kind is of use for us; all this is little litter that the wind makes fly. Our mission is different: to redeem the Humanity through a perfect and continuous holocaust. If I think “I would wish a foundation in the United Sates or in Colombia, and any other pleasant thing, at once the flame of my holocaust goes out at the Foot of the Divine Mother’s Altar. Even when anyway finally the Divine Mother’s Will is made, always I did the least that I thought or wished.
As soon as one’s personality acts, the flame of the holocaust goes out, but later when the souls reflects and surrenders again, this flame is kindled again.
All this regardless our inner fidelity, which ultimately is there always. The Divine Mother comes to the world through us; if you refuse to die or to be a perfect holocaust, this is as if we impeded the Divine Mother to carry the redemption light to the Humanity. We have to offer all to our Divine Lady. We should remain on the Calvary of our secret inner sufferings. This is precious. How responsible we should be for our mission. Every time one’s mind or heart follows the birds of our fantasy, the flame of our holocaust goes out. Then we are impeding the souls to be Divinely Redeemed by the Mother.
A person devoted to God from early years, at a moment in his life had a worldly desire and said, “How wonderful would be to live in the work for such or such motive”. And he had the extraordinary grace of seeing the Divine Mother’s Face with such grimace of pain and pain that he never could forget this.
Every time that we are carried away by our illusion or fantasy, every times that we perceive a desire of life or of the world, our Divine Mother’s Face is covered by a deadly pallor; as it were, She revives in Herself the entire torment of the Divine Incarnation.
So, every time we are carried away by our fantasy or we have certain desire, let us imagine this Divine Face, distorted in pain and covered by a deadly pallor. Because she suffers a deadly pain every time we do not offer our holocaust.
We have given our life to the Divine Mother. We have given every beat of our hearts; let us think of her anguish when she notices that these beats of our surrendered hearts stop. Let us think that She is in our own heart, that she feels and perceives all, and her anguish shall be tremendous as she notices doubts or hesitations, or that we refuse to do something. Rather, it is the heart of the Divine Mother that is beating in our chests, and that Her heart expands to all souls through the perfect offering.