Course XLVII - Teaching 16: Absorption and Reserve of Energies (May 19th, 1956)

An Ordained Son lives in absorption and keeping his energies in reserve.
We have not only the Stability Area that is physical and material, which we cannot go out of, but also another intimate magnetic area (that of the soul), which is holy. We should not go out of the magnetic Stability Area of the soul; we must move in it (in the enclosed area). So, we shall not go out of this magnetic Stability Area of the soul for any reason. It is our intimacy that we reserve to the Divine Mother by our Renunciation Vows; we are lamps burning before the altar, and the world lives by this light. We cannot stop burning, and we should continue to be consumed in order maintain our flame; if we abandon our intimate absorption, we permit this lamp to go out. This flame is already of the world, and we are not entitled to allow this flame to stop burning one instant at the Feet of the Divine Incarnation. You know quite well how difficult is to kindle it again when we neglect it, and how easily it goes out! In spite of all this, we leave our inner Stability Area and neglect this Divine Gift of Mystical Renunciation that is only of those souls that renounce. But this Gift is not ours, we owe it to the Humanity because its fruit is assistance of sick persons, help of the needy, and guide of the souls. And how do we leave our intimacy? There are three exits: our thoughts, our will, and our lack of energy reserve (entirely translated into false charity). We are the dead; or is it not written on the Holy Scriptures: “Leave the dead to bury the dead?” –we have left the world, our beloved beings, and our memories: all. So, what to do there, with our thought? When we think of the world or our thought touches what we were or did, a vibratory way opens from the Mother’s House to the world, in which our power escapes toward the world, and the worldly power rushes into the Community. No! We should cut wings to our thought, and frustrate our imagination. We should have only one idea and only one ideal: the Mother and Her Work.
What to do in my city or at my old house? With relatives, and with those that were my friends? However wonderful is a worldly memory, it is poison to us.
Likewise it occurs with our will. Human will was a tool and I used it to come here, but now I should not desire anything. My only duty is the Divine Mother. An Ordained Son does not desire anything any more. We dropped our will by means of our Vows, we are devoted to the Mother; therefore, the soul escapes from the holy intimacy through our holiest desires. Not only I do not desire anything and surrender to the Mother’s Will through my obedience to the Superior, and to a conscientious Observance in detriment of my own will, but also I should not desire anything spiritual. I should not desire spiritual knowledge, if this gives me something that I can call mine. I have nothing, and I do not desire anything. This is for those worldly men that desire and can desire better things or to obtain virtues. I surrender to the Divine Mother, and desire what She desires. The perfection of my soul is up to Her. I make efforts and perform my duties. If She wants me to be ever imperfect, ignorant, and the last one in the Community, then gladly I accept Her decision, and I do not desire anything for me. If I knew that through perfection I could achieve something personal, I prefer thousand times ever to remain in the most complete imperfection and ignorance. As Saint Paul said, “It is not me who lives, but God who lives in me”. My eventual strength is not mine. It is the Divine Mother that brings about this strength within, and how may I waste the Mother’s strength? What else can I desire if She lives in me? I cannot do anything, but She can do all in me.
Thus I remain absorbed in my inner life, and She can carry out in me her redeeming work, that is a new form of universal salvation. Your path is a new path of salvation, and here is your unique salvation, but you continue to live outwards. And where can there be a more certain peace than within? Our energies are not ours anymore, they do not belong to us; the Great Current vibrates in us. We must take care of them conscientiously. So we should observe a modest look and silence, and avoid any energy waste internally and externally. Our strength is not of us any more and escapes through our eyes and glances; also our voice is a vibratory current through which our energy escapes. Our body is a “transceptor”, but even in this case our energies escape, and sometimes we do not notice clearly. The Interpretation tells us to keep and to be in charge of those things. So, we are in charge of all those things that we use. We have nothing at all. They tell us: keep this, there you have your books, your watch, your flash-lamp and your clothes, but in fact, is it something ours? No! We are just in charge of all this. We are not entitled to lend anything or to dispose of these objects as we wish; if anyone asks something of us, are we entitled to give it, if it is not ours?
Saint Martin of Tours gave a half of his cloak to a poor man. Likewise Saint Catherine of Siena did with her wool underwear. But we cannot do this. We are so divinely poor that we cannot dispose of anything, even about our clothes. The point is that the Mother’s energy escapes through our objects (objects which we are in charge of). In this case, our magnetic intimacy circle is broken. Seemingly this is a dilemma: to go against charity? What is important? What should I chose, charity or my Vow? It is a dilemma.
Our mission is far greater. If we fulfill, if we confine ourselves, our charity encompasses the entire world: we assist and heal the sick, we help the needy, and we guide souls.
Our renunciation is: No, No, and No!
The human life consists of makings, going to and fro, and dissipation, but an Ordained Son’s life consists of permanence and denial, undoing what others confirm, and this not for selfishness, but for performing a greater mission.
To give, give, and give more.
The inner magnetic Stability Area is a gift of Renunciation Mystique.
Only those that practice Renunciation take part in this Divine Mystique.
If we leave our Magnetic Stability Area, we waste our inner energy and do not carry out perfectly our mission that, as we know, is: Health of the sick, Assistance of the needy, and Guide of the souls.
Our body is a transceptor: we are giving continuously.