Course XLV - Teaching 15: Love and Sacrifice

Here are the greatest gifts of Ordination: capacity to love and suffer in silence, which the Sons acquire by being detached from things.
Seemingly, on first sight, life of Ordination is a decision of certain little sensible souls who abandon the world and any affection. And it is convenient that people of the world may believe such a thing about those who abandoned it.
You need great capacity of love to go and embrace a state of life totally devoted to the Divinity, and to sacrifice the purest and deepest affections of your heart.
Moreover, a very concentrated and watchful life in Community and the application of exercises of assistance and prayer really intensify sensorial fibers of your being, and grant to your soul so extraordinary and supernatural excellence that is beyond understanding.
Inner efforts made by you to gain control over natural feelings and to sublimate affections of your blood, grant a higher capacity of love; and since this is not a selfish or sensorial love, quickly expands, and its character is entirely supernatural and divine.
This lofty love beautifies and strengthens any word and act of the Ordained Son who is more and more able to perceive, observe and communicate his feelings, and to appreciate those little things that are reference points of human sentiments.
This super-sensibility, which does not operate by itself but in itself, transforms work and direct assistance into a great success, and grants introspective power of help and protection to action.
Of course, when the Son acquires this great sensibility, also he has more power of suffering: not a sterile pain, but a sweet and constructive suffering.
Saint Joseph of Cupertino said he had a wound in his heart: a living wound of love.
And Simone Weil says, God is love in your intimacy and sacrifice in your external work.
Pain is an unmistakable sign of true love.
Perhaps certain weaker souls may be always unable to suppress and to say nothing about their state of mind, and may feel hurt and misunderstood by somewhat indifferent or hard attitude of people. But this little laments dissolve the effective fruit of the grace and scatter the sap of the internal offering. You should give in a form self-denying and constructive, with unlimited generosity, and in silence; this way, intact drops of blood of your heart fall on the lap of the Divine Mother.
Through the power of this internal pain, the Son is able to start any conquest, to achieve whatever he wishes spiritually, and to gain souls.
Great is the value of a missionary who, amid dangers and strenuous efforts, conquers souls wherever he goes; but infinitely superior is that egocentric missionary who conquers souls in the loving and unselfish silence of his heart.
As long as he loves and suffers more and more, he conquers more souls for Spiritual Life.
A Sign of Blood is embroidered in the Standard of Love belonging to an Ordained Son.
So, a vocation of Renunciation does not demand any elimination of affections and feelings, but just their transmutation into a flame of Divine Love.
This love, after its purification from human dregs, and by means of pain and sacrifice, becomes a Living flame of Divine Love.
Worldly love and pain kill, but spiritual love and pain give life.
When love loses any external appearance of manifested affection, then it becomes deeper and spiritual, and is like a state of apathy and indifference. Even human affection, deeper and more real, loses consistency and rather belongs to the soul than to senses.