Course XLV - Teaching 1: Call to Ordination

Although all souls are called to the Supreme Renunciation, just some few realize it by means of the Ordination.
It would be inconvenient to believe that any vocation to Ordination becomes manifested and develops in the same way, but in all of them there is a similar point that one could call internal divine motion in the souls.
This internal call, intense or vague, can be insistent or fleeting; can cause attraction or be refused in the beginning. But basically is always the same: an internal unexplained feeling that calls the soul to the most perfect life by means of the Ordination.
Whoever experiences this internal motion, this Divine call, is obliged to respond to it.
But when vocation emerges from dreamy imagination, personal desires, disappointments and human bitterness, it must be rejected because is not a true vocation. These wrong trends may be however beside a true vocation, but just in a soul that at certain moment felt that internal divine motion. Then, these natural impulses have to be disposed of like passions and obstacles that hinder a true vocation.
Those souls that feel this internal motion in a very vivid and intense way, experience as if it were a sudden wound in the soul. They cannot wait, be happy or resigned to anywhere or anything. Now nothing calls their attention, and anything that moves them away from the divine call is cause of grief and sadness to them; anything that impedes or delays the fulfillment of their desires is death to them These souls do not admit delays and quickly go up the Way to Renunciation.
Those souls that feel the internal call in a vague way, usually take a long time to realize their vocation; generally, they are unable to travel through the way to perfection and ascend step by step toward the summit. Souls of this type run the risk of failing if a good Spiritual Director does not lead them well. Since they are reluctant to great sacrifices, as soon as they find a serious problem, feel that they are unfit to anything, and here the steady hand of the Director becomes necessary. Also in life there are certain periods when vocation is apparently forgotten, but it is not so: a true vocation never dies, although ashes cover ashes in such a way that you do not see them, but a little movement, a renewed fervor or a holy reading is enough to revive them.
An internal vague motion is more and more usual in the soul and at the end becomes a true vocational realization.
Certain souls perceive the divine call through an insistent internal motion, which is unrealizable; these souls are immobilized by human bonds and duties of life: so, their desires do not come true because they delay them, but the divine motion is always there and ready inside them.
The soul gets used to that saintly and insistent desire and would wish to realize it, but does not do its best to put it into practice. On this occasion, the divine power that calls this person to his Ordination, makes use of any means to awake him and tests him through pains, mourning and dire losses, and so leads him to realize his vocation.
Despite this, once these souls abandon any worry and break any mental and sentimental bond that ties them to the world, surrender totally to their spiritual vocation.
Those souls that receive their internal spiritual motion in an entirely fleeting and passing way take a long time to realize it. This internal desire appears in the intimacy of the soul, and later disappears and sometimes seemingly does not leave any trace or memory. But once the divine touch takes place, never can be deleted; sometimes many years and one day later, suddenly, that vocational idea appears again, the divine feeling moves the heart in a powerful way, and finally the soul follows the way for which it had been chosen.
Those souls that feel that internal motion and are powerfully attracted by it respond spontaneously. But as soon as they express their purpose, a wave of trials and storms starts against them: habits, family, race and many other factors furiously emerge to hinder their intention. Then these souls suddenly feel belittled and frightened, and do not know what to do. They must be very careful with these trials because these great storms do not last too much, and the stronger they are, the quicker is their passage, and later these souls find again energy, understanding and means to answer to the call. Those souls that do not resist this internal motion are softly led to the Ordination.
Seemingly, nothing is against them, and everything occurs slowly and without any trouble. Their vocation makes its way within little by little, as if it were a natural and logical consequence of their lives. Nothing and nobody hinders their vocation. This internal spontaneous motion apparently is protected against any contrary wind.
But beware!, the time of trial will come.
Many souls feel this internal call and reject it in a systematic way. Before the idea of abandoning the world and their dear ones, get scared and reject entirely their vocation because of their future hardships and fights.
How many souls experienced this terrible state and almost were forced to follow the Way to Renunciation! Sometimes, these souls experienced very hard and drastic trials, and almost were forced to fulfill their mission of Ordained Sons, which their performed in a splendid way.
Any soul destined to the Sanctuary, sooner or later, if they are properly guided, will realize their divine destiny.
It is the Divine Mother who calls her Chosen Sons, and this is fundamental y valuable in regard to vocation. Preparation and the way to fulfill the divine injunction are made in many ways.
But as soon as a soul receives the internal divine motion, inevitably it must respond to the sublime call.